Plot and Lies

Ever felt the pang of being backstabbed? hurts don't it? or more appropriately it makes you want to lay out your plan for vengeance right?

as soon as i realized the wonderful phase of socializing, i can say that i've been blessed with true-pinch yourself as if you are in a dream- sincere-good-natured-wacky (in a good way) friends. i dont really have a big network of friends but i am proud to say the small circle that i have been tried and tested. i've been with them good or bad. they've accepted me for my shortcomings, stupidity (specially when it comes to men), and stubborness (again with men); reprimanded me for my mistakes without trampling upon my self-respect and making me feel dumb and most important of all, they have loved me thru all this - unconditionally is actually an understatement.

so from all of what i just said, if someone you trust and whom you treated as a TRUE friend backstabs you how would you feel? how would you even react? or for that matter, how are you supposed to act or react after you know you have a snake as a friend?!?!?!? would you confront the "traitor"? as for me it literally felt like a stab thru my gut. when i found out i started denying it, then i started getting mad, went berserk enough to punch somebody and then slumped to disbelief. i didnt even confront or ask if what i heard was true.......maybe because I DO KNOW that this person is indeed spreading lies about me.

sometimes or rather most of the time you think you already know somebody. then you see a sliver of their true self and you either 1. ask why it took you so long to find out; 2. are you that stupid to not notice the signs? or 3. you can't believe that this is the SAME friend that you're seeing.

Being backstabbed is even worse than being cursed at or called names..........its even a lot worse when a friend is the one that's backstabbing you. at least people who say sh*t straight to your face are honest.........eventhough it's not exactly considered etiquette and you wish that the earth will swallow them, they are voicing out what they truly feel and think about you. No matter what people say....... regardless of all the trash that is said behind a person's back - friend or no friend......

AT THE END OF THE DAY, THE TRUTH WILL STILL BE THE TRUTH AND LIES WILL STILL BE LIES.